a flattering discovery . . .

well i know people have been very much aware that my recent job led me to become too busy with work such that i no longer got in touch, or had the opportunity or luxury of time to get in touch with my friends, and other people i know . . . before, the moments i had not working became my only time for rest . . . that much needed sleep that i never even got to enjoy . . .

so recently, i had the chance to keep in touch with my “people of the past” and i had this nice feeling when i realized 2 things . . .

1. i never thought i knew that much (sobrang dami ko na palang kilalang tao in my 27 years here on earth), and

2. i never thought i have made that much of an impact to these people . . .

i guess it’s definitely flattering for a person who recently started to ask herself . . . “am i a good person?”, “what is my purpose in life?”, “what do i want in life?”, “how do i want to live my life, if i had the choice?”, and, “how do i want to be remembered when time comes that i have to leave earth?”

honestly, i never thought i was able to touch people’s lives . . . i never thought that i was able to defend them during times they felt no one was there to back them up . . .

my god, i never thought i was that dependable and credible . . . i never thought people saw me as a person who also wanted what’s best for her people . . . i realized that they saw me as an ally . . . a friend who would be there to smile, to listen, even if we have different backgrounds, or as what they always tell me . . . “status in life” . . . ang sarap ng feeling . . . sobra . . .

i remembered when i was a kid . . . i wanted to be remembered as a person who helped people . . . when i was in college, i wanted to be remembered as a person who was able to touch people’s lives . . . when i was at abs-cbn, i told my boss i wanted to be remembered as a person who inspired people . . . through the years i uttered different statements but looking closely at each of them, the dream never changed, it was just becoming more concrete . . . i had always been others-oriented and i have always wanted to offer and share my life to them . . .

and so, the dream has become clearer right now . . . i want to help people, to touch their lives, and be the instrument for them to improve their lives as well . . . i want to be the instrument for their success . . .

i wish i’d be able to fulfill that . . . i pray i’d be able to be successful in doing so . . . please help me pray for it . . . ibang klaseng fulfillment siguro ‘yun . . .

–GI 30682

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