a flattering discovery . . .
well i know people have been very much aware that my recent job led me to become too busy with work such that i no longer got in touch, or had the opportunity or luxury of time to get in touch with my friends, and other people i know . . . before, the moments i had not working became my only time for rest . . . that much needed sleep that i never even got to enjoy . . .
so recently, i had the chance to keep in touch with my “people of the past” and i had this nice feeling when i realized 2 things . . .
1. i never thought i knew that much (sobrang dami ko na palang kilalang tao in my 27 years here on earth), and
2. i never thought i have made that much of an impact to these people . . .
i guess it’s definitely flattering for a person who recently started to ask herself . . . “am i a good person?”, “what is my purpose in life?”, “what do i want in life?”, “how do i want to live my life, if i had the choice?”, and, “how do i want to be remembered when time comes that i have to leave earth?”
honestly, i never thought i was able to touch people’s lives . . . i never thought that i was able to defend them during times they felt no one was there to back them up . . .
my god, i never thought i was that dependable and credible . . . i never thought people saw me as a person who also wanted what’s best for her people . . . i realized that they saw me as an ally . . . a friend who would be there to smile, to listen, even if we have different backgrounds, or as what they always tell me . . . “status in life” . . . ang sarap ng feeling . . . sobra . . .
i remembered when i was a kid . . . i wanted to be remembered as a person who helped people . . . when i was in college, i wanted to be remembered as a person who was able to touch people’s lives . . . when i was at abs-cbn, i told my boss i wanted to be remembered as a person who inspired people . . . through the years i uttered different statements but looking closely at each of them, the dream never changed, it was just becoming more concrete . . . i had always been others-oriented and i have always wanted to offer and share my life to them . . .
and so, the dream has become clearer right now . . . i want to help people, to touch their lives, and be the instrument for them to improve their lives as well . . . i want to be the instrument for their success . . .
i wish i’d be able to fulfill that . . . i pray i’d be able to be successful in doing so . . . please help me pray for it . . . ibang klaseng fulfillment siguro ‘yun . . .
–GI 30682
Uncategorized | Comment (0)coward daredevils
i know i’ve done a lot of blogs about my hatred for motorcycle drivers (sorry friends who love motorcycles), but as a person who loves to drive cars, they cause traffic for me.
as i’ve always been sharing, i just hate how they bravely weave through the streets of metro manila not realizing that they are actually cutting the lanes of cars and other vehicles . . . nakakapikon lang kasi ‘pag sila ang naaksidente, often kasalanan pa ng driver ng sasakyan . . .
and, as much as they look like daredevils on the road . . . don’t you just hate it when it rains . . . they suddenly flock under overpasses para sumilong . . . ang tapang makipag-racing sa mga sasakyan pero takot sa ulan! grrr . . .
basta, naniniwala ako that they cause traffic a lot . . .
‘yun lang . . .
–GI 30682
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i find it amusing to see old photos back when we were in grade school, high school, and college. it can really be hilarious at some point to see how much you’ve grown, how one has matured through the years . . . in a way, it was fun to look back on how it was before.
then i remembered i loved bringing my camera during special school events. i realized i should have tons of old photos to share.
and so, i started to look through my old junk and piles of school stuff to find my set of photos. i found them so now, i just need to find a good set of scanner so i can upload those photos. hehehehe =p
kaya lang, i was also saddened . . . mahilig ako kumuha ng picture pero shy pa ako noon! so wala ako masyadong picture at puro ako ang “the girl behind the camera”! whapak!
asar moment ‘yun, when i figured it out . . . oh well, pwede na rin. mataba pa ako noon e. hahahahaha
in time, i’ll post those old pictures . . . 
–GI 30682
maraming nagmamahal sa iyo . . .
had a meeting a while ago and we’ve discussed about the things that happened in my life for the past month . . .
it’s weird, after talking about it, i said i feel better than last month. moreover, i shared my future plans and how i’m looking forward - hopeful that things will get better soon.
surprising i guess, was the fact that while i was sharing all these, i had been saying different names - people who’ve gotten in touch, maintained friendship . . . people who made sure that things turn out well and their assurances that they are always there for me . . .
then this person told me . . . “ang daming nagmamahal sa iyo, ‘no?”
i thought for a while . . . “oo nga, ano?” . . . these are the real friends one can ever have. i never really thought about that . . . but once you realize, the feeling is nice . . .
so right now i’m just thinking, what have i done right that’s why people cared that much? sometimes the reasons are not important but sometimes a person can really get curious of it . . . as for me, maybe i just wanted to know para alam ko na ‘yun ang dapat kong ipagpatuloy na gawin . . .
i’m thankful for people like them . . . sana maging ganoon din ako sa kanila . . .
but ok, fine . . . forgive me for this one . . . as much as alam kong maraming nagmamahal sa akin sa paligid ko . . . yeah, i still wish i could have nanay mai to still be in that special group of people i have . . . i miss her and i hope everything’s well with her . . .
–GI 30682
Uncategorized | Comment (0)things i miss and don’t miss about abs-cbn . . .
it’s been more than a week now since my resignation from abs-cbn . . . just came back from my ilo-ilo vacation and honestly, i’m still enjoying it . . . i guess i badly needed this . . . a moment to relax and recharge before i start sailing again to my new journey . . .
so anyway, since i have a lot of time to spend right now . . . i figured the things i will miss and won’t miss in my dream company . . .
let’s start with the things i’m going to miss . . .
- pagbigyan n’yo na ako dito . . . but i’m really gonna miss my nanay mai . . .
- rba people who became close to me . . . you know, the people i really trusted . . . you guys know who you are *wink*
- tv? pero sana i could switch to the cable channels . . .
- the kind receptionists . . .
- the christmas party! lagi kasi akong nananalo ng isa sa mga major prizes . . . talk about my ipod and the wow magic sing na pinagpalit ko sa P5,000. hahaha
- conversations with vyt
- fgds . . . just the fgds . . . nothing after . . .
- the subcons baby n’yo akong lahat e
now, for the things i won’t miss . . .
- the job . . . hahaha, sorry . . .
- some people? hahaha, bitter pa rin . . .
- traffic at quezon avenue
- long work hours
- no internet
- the food . . .
- *censored* clue: balikabayan, shoe, etc . . .
nonetheless, it was a great experience. i was finally able to live my dream . . . but like what i’ve told them . . . maybe, it’s time to move on and find greater heights . . .
i’ll miss you rba peeps . . . and you’ll forever remain in my heart . . .
–GI 30682
late comment on the latest american idol
since i’ve been busy most of the time, i wasn’t able to comment on the american idol finale . . . that is, when the news was still fresh and relevant . . .
well, since i have a lot of time now after i’ve tendered my resignation, might as well give my thoughts on the newest american idol, kris allen . . .
first of all, i think he’s cute . . . he can sing but i don’t think he’s been consistent in the contest. he’s got his own good nights and also had a couple of bad ones.
i think, adam has been more consistent . . . and i’ve been a fan of adam (also initially rooted for him) but i think, during the final week, i felt the need to swing my vote (as if, makakaboto ako, hahaha).
why?
well, i realized america seems not yet ready for an artist like adam . . . i find him creative, but i still am not sure of his sexuality. he never confirmed it actually but i think it also became an issue. is american idol ready for adam? i think during the latter weeks, i got tired of him. sure, he is interesting but . . . i realized he loves to shriek . . . too gay . . . *peace*
as for kris, he is a safer bet . . . glad he won but he’s just another pretty boy. i don’t think he can be as remarkable as the successful american idols like kelly clarkson, carrie underwood, and david cook . . . give him just one album . . . then he’s like another ruben studdard, and taylor hicks . . . a has been. i don’t know, i guess i have still yet to find what makes kris truly distinct from the others . . .
well, let’s see . . . maybe i’ll be surprised when his album comes out . . .
–GI 30682
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