as promised . . .
ok . . . i remember a couple of blogs ago that i’m gonna make an entry regarding this election thingy i’m involved with right now . . . so here goes . . .
well, we’re involved in the "securing" of the votes of 3 (or 2 na lang ata) senatoriables . . . that is, we’re guarding the votes and quite making sure that these candidates aren’t being cheated. the 3 senatoriables? well, we’ve got joker arroyo, loren legarda, and mike defensor. honestly, i’m not sure if defensor is still included but the other 2 . . . we’re actively doing it.
well . . . for sure loren is in . . . i’m praying that joker gets in, too. he’s a good man . . . i admire his principles and his conviction. it’s men like him that we need to govern our country.
funny as it seems, ‘no? i mean for people who knew me well . . . even back in college or before that . . . these people would be fully aware that i’m really not interested in politics. c’mon! i’m not even a registered voter . . . i didn’t want to practice my right in a dirty political system.
but, i don’t know . . . the country’s been hounding me, i guess . . .
why?
well, back in high school and even most of my college years, i had that ulitimate dream of getting in a great university and getting high grades in college and after that, go abroad to work . . . more particularly in london. but before i graduated from up, things have changed. after going on that european tour and as i was getting to know quite a bit of each european country’s history, i figured theirs can be compared to our colorful history. i even remembered those foreigners i’ve gone on a tour with would often criticize our country questioning the security measures our country has and i remember myself defending (to my surprise) that there’s hope in our country. it’s just that media has been exaggerating the news . . . but definitely, our country is not as bad as how the media pictures it to be. after that european and new york tour, i went back home to a cleaner metro manila . . . bayani fernando was just newly appointed mmda chair. that’s when i figured that there’s hope in our country . . . if only all of us believed that it is possible. that’s when i’ve decided that i’d rather work here in the philippines. i figured, we are the hope of our country . . . we are the ones who could make the difference . . . there will definitely be no hope in this country if all of us have that belief . . . if all of us would rather leave the country thinking that’s where our future is.
as i graduated from college, i remember saying "itaga n’yo sa bato, i’ll never work for the government." i would prefer working for the private sector. i always had the picture that government offices are quite disappointing scenarios . . . old and grumpy people at their desks . . . lunch time from 11:00 a. m. to 1:00 p. m. . . . although work ends at 5:00 p. m., everyone piles out at 4:00 p. m. i don’t want that.
but no! my first job was at the department of national defense. yes . . . i ate every word i said . . . but you know, it was a fruitful experience. it was not the typical government job. my boss came from the private sector and we’re practicing a private set-up in our office. although i got to see in the other offices the typical government office i dreaded . . . as a whole, it gave me a chance to have a second look at government. it was an opportunity for me to open my eyes and see the reality of things . . . my boss, being a cabinet secretary, allowed me to learn more about politics . . . it had good effects and even bad ones. the good thing . . . you get to know some secrets about the government or you get to hear the news first before the public but then . . . sometimes, it would be easier to not have known those things as well . . . because it can bother your conscience at times . . . well, you know what i mean 
although i gave government the chance to prove my ideas wrong, i never wanted to give politics a chance . . . and well, here i go again . . . eating my words . . . because quite relatively, i’m involved right now . . . supporting a couple of senatoriables.
well, i still see philippine politics as dirty and i doubt if in the near future we can have it cleaned up. i remember people telling me i’d be a good politician . . . charisma and all . . . haha . . . mga bolero! well, thank you but no thanks. i’ve got my reasons . . . for one, although i would love to be of service to filipinos, i believe that entering politics is not the only way to do so . . . i’d rather do something charitable like putting up a foundation or orphanage. secondly, should i win if i run for government office, what will i do once i’m in? lastly, i’ve always believed that entering politics is a risk in having your image stained. all my life, i did my best to have a clean image for myself . . . i wouldn’t want to have it stained. my belief . . . there are 3 kinds of politicians. first, you enter with bad intentions, and once you’re in, you do your evil plans; second, you enter politics with good intentions but then you get blinded with power and money, you tend abuse it. last, you enter politics with good intentions, and once you’re in, you stick to your principles but then, others get envious so they do their best to put you down . . . regardless if the rumors are true or not, your good image gets stained. i don’t want that . . . i don’t want to risk the good investment i had all my life to maintain my good image to people.
well . . . twice i’ve eaten my words . . . so don’t doubt if in time i run for government office? haha . . . oh no! god forbid! ayoko talaga . . . ilayo n’yo na ako sa pulitika! ‘di ko kaya ang mga intriga . . . haha
lately, i’ve been thinking about my changing views with regard to the future of our country. economically, we’re doing well . . . our political system just has that big chunk in giving a bad image to our country . . . with all that bickering of politicians. but as i’ve said many times, if many people would want to leave the country for a better future, i choose to stay and try to make a difference. i believe that living in this world gives us hope. everything in this world is finite . . . everything has its own limit. if at this point we’re on our way down . . . maybe there’ll come a time that we’ll reach rock bottom and when that happens . . . there’s nowhere else to go but up . . . 
i started having a dream of finding my future abroad . . . but many times i’ve been hindered . . . when it seems i’m always being pulled back here in our country. maybe there’s a plan . . . maybe, i have a destiny here in the country . . . to make a difference and help put the country up . . .
i’d love that . . . to be able to make a difference for our country . . . not thru politics but in other means . . .
libre naman mangarap, ‘di ba?
–GI 30682
Current Affairs | Comment (0)light at the end of the tunnel?
hmm . . . i don’t know . . . lately, it’s one roller coaster ride . . . at one point, i’d love to believe it is the start of god’s answering my longtime prayer . . . yet in another, here comes another thing to spend some deep thinking on.
i know i’ve reached the point of really questioning my faith . . . i do admit that . . . but i did my best to hold on . . . questioning his love . . . and in deep confusion, just totally surrendering it to him. yes, i have reached the point that i could no longer understand it . . . and just said, "bahala ka na" . . . i’ll just pray then you do the rest . . .
it paid off, i guess . . . after about 3 months of almost giving up . . . i was slowly feeling his answering my prayer . . . or so, i think . . .
and yes, i’m one prodigal daughter . . . i know i have sinned for questioning him yet there i was, apologizing . . . and thanking him. but then again, he is god . . . he knew even before what i’m gonna do . . . what’s going to happen, right?
just recently, i’m again faced with another situation wherein deep thinking is required. i prayed and quite jokingly said . . . "god, problema na naman ba ito? ‘di ko na kasi kaya e. baka pwede namang trade off d’yan? give me this new problem pero sagutin mo naman ‘yung matagal ko ng dinadasal . . ." lakas ng loob kong makipag-bargain sa d’yos, ano? haha . . . but it was funny . . . because right then and there, he gave me again a taste of giving me a bit of what i’ve long been praying for . . . you can say i’m considering those things as "hint" that he’s really going to answer it . . . at the right time, maybe. perhaps, those hints he’s giving to keep me holding on . . . to assure me of that answered prayer.
then here goes . . . as i was thinking of how to solve this new "problem" . . . i’ve realized something . . . it quite opened a door for me to consider again something . . . another long time dream . . . something i’ve long forgotten . . . and this time, i found it to be something that god’s reminding me of . . . something which seems to be "hey, the time has come for this dream . . . i can give it to you now, if you want . . ."
you know my new prayer? for those two important things for me right now to be heard by god . . . that i’m reading the signs well . . . that really, it’s the start of the time for answered prayers . . . to consider, it is possible for just one solution for both prayers . . . i hope it comes true . . .
help me pray for it, please?
–GI 30682
thoughts | Comment (0)melinda doolittle for american idol 6
ok . . . so phil stacey and chris richardson are already out . . . (sigh . . . wala ng gwapo . . . haha)
so, we’ve got 4 remaining idol hopefuls . . . melinda doolittle, jordin sparks, blake lewis, and lakisha jones . . .
ok . . . i’m gonna make my prediction . . .
melinda as this season’s american idol . . .
why? well, she’s got it all . . . she had the experience . . . having been singing back-up for the longest time. that "meek and humble" persona she has . . . but the fighter in each round whenever she performs. it’s a complete package of a star . . . talent, humor, and humility . . . what more could you ask for? so far, it’s just melinda who hasn’t been part of the bottom 3 for the previous rounds . . . this is great proof of how many people believe in her talent. i like the way paula describes melinda’s style . . . she tells a story. if, until the round before the finale, melinda’s never been part of the bottom 3 . . . then it’s really likely she’ll be the next american idol. and should that happen, she’ll be next to carrie underwood (of season 4) who’s never been part of the bottom 3 ever and has eventually won the savored american idol label.
so . . . with the premise that america will choose talent . . . i’m gonna bet that melinda will get the first spot in the american idol finale. now, the question . . . who gets the other spot?
lemme see . . .
well . . . i find it a balanced game right now. think about these 3 scenarios:
1. melinda vs. blake - i don’t like blake. i don’t know, he has that certain facial expression whenever he sings that irritates me. another thing, i’m not fond of beatbox. but . . . he is original . . . and that’s what makes him stay. it would be nice to see him in the finale . . . what more ideas he could come up with.
2. melinda vs. jordin - nice combination, as well. this will remind us of the finale during season 3 . . . fantasia vs. diana degarmo. a great singer (fantasia) and a promising young singer (diana). i’m sure you guys know that jordin is just 17 years old . . . so it’s nice . . . the experienced vs. the young.
3. melinda vs. lakisha - now, this will be fun to watch. diva to diva . . . head to head. two powerhouse singers . . . the singers described to be out of their league. my problem? lakisha has the tendency to be vulnerable. she’s been part of the bottom 3 . . . and there has been a round where she seemed to have messed up the song . . . experience-wise and confidence (in its real sense while singing on stage), it’s definitely melinda who’s more comfortable . . . or should we say more natural . . . effortless as she sings.
now, if melinda doesn’t win . . . who do i want? either jordin or lakisha . . . don’t like blake e . . . sana si phil na lang kasi ‘yung naiwan . . . haha
but really . . . i want melinda to win . . . *wish wish*
off-topic . . . this is a shout-out for someone who gave me a good advice yesterday. thanks, i really appreciated that . . . and your suggestion/offer ha . . . to get revenge . . . haha. be on standby, i have kept that in mind . . . baka kagatin ko ‘yung ino-offer mo . . . haha . . . laughtrip ka talaga kagabi . . . you really made me laugh.
–GI 30682
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