worst day of my life
if there’s one song i’d play over and over today . . . it’s definitely "bad day" by daniel powter.
oh yes . . . it’s one bad day for me . . .
yesterday, my car was having a hard time starting. i realized it’s been 3 years since i’ve replaced my car’s battery and figured perhaps, it’s time to buy a new one. and so i did . . . i went to work after assuming everything’s gonna be fine already. but i was wrong . . . ’cause i realized everytime a make a turn, all the more in elevated curbs, my car stalls.
i brushed aside the whole thing thinking it’s a minor thing and i could just take note of it until my car’s next maintenance check up. since i’m working in makati now, after i’ve consumed the first 5 hours of my parking, i always take my car out to look for a new parking space . . . ’cause it makes my parking fee expenses a whole lot cheaper.
so anyway, as i was doing my normal routine in the afternoon, my car had been stalling more frequently . . . now whenever i turn my air conditioner on and when making turns. as i went back to my office room, i immediately made an appointment for my car to be serviced the next day, that is, today . . .
as what i usually do whenever i have my car checked up at nissan, i have my driver take the van and follow me there so that as i leave my car, i’d still have another one to use. with that routine, that’s how the day was planned.
i was to cross the street from our house to commonwealth and my car stopped. it won’t start . . . to add to my dismay. now, my car’s been blocking one of the busiest streets in metro manila during rush hour. and as much as i always get irritated to those drivers who obstruct traffic, i realized that’s basically what i was doing earlier. adding all the more the traffic they’re already experiencing.
i had a goal that time. i was just praying that my car would just start . . . enough for me to cross the street to avoid obstructing traffic. yes, my car started but thanks to those uneducated drivers who won’t give you the "right of way" my few seconds eventually will be up . . . thus, i’m not able to cross the intersection. i was irritated with those drivers i’ve been cursing them all. my driver had no choice but to push my car back . . . away from the intersection.
i figured it’s gonna hopeless to try and pray that my car start again so i’ve decided to have it towed. i was already having a bad day and of course, i believe anyone who’d experience such ordeal would get irritated. add the fact that you’re rushing off for work.
to add to my dismay, the traditional filipinos are present in that scenario . . . the usiseros. many approached asking the problem of my car. i answered and perhaps they have good intentions of trying to suggest what may be the problem but during that moment, it’s not my concern. i hated the scene when you’re just basically thinking how to get your car to nissan service center and the people around you would go "baka ganito ‘yung problem . . . o kaya ganito . . ." i got pissed off honestly and i bad-mouthed them due to the dismay i’ve been having during the whole scene. i remember shouting at them saying "p*******a naman! wala akong pakialam kung naiisip n’yo ang problema ng sasakyan ko. bakit kung tama ang hula n’yo, magagawa n’yo ba ngayon? hindi rin naman e! dahil kailangan munang dalhin sa talyer ‘yung sasakyan bago masimulan! bullshit!"
i got the keys of the van and went home leaving my driver with my stalled car instructing him to wait for the tow truck that i’m gonna call. i went home to call for the tow truck of the automobile association my car’s a member of. that was 8:30 in the morning . . . and they said it’s gonna take perhaps around 10:00 for the tow truck to arrive. shit! and you call it "24-hours tow truck service"?? darn it!
but i’m left with no choice so i just agreed to wait. i was so frustrated with the whole situation and i texted a couple of friends for comfort. i asked one to call me up, i badly needed to air out my frustrations and anger with the whole situation. as i was talking to my friend, everything just sank to me . . . not just my car . . . but with everything that’s been going on in my life lately . . . i couldn’t help but cry to my friend over the phone.
it was past 10:00 am and i still haven’t gotten any advice about the tow truck and i was getting pissed off again. as i’ve been constantly following it up, i’ve heard excuses like "sorry po. marami po kasing nagpa-tow. wala pang available tow truck." wow! talk about bad luck . . . marami ka pang kasabayang nagpa-tow . . . of all days!! shit! or how about reasons like "malayo po kasi ang panggagalingan ng truck . . ." god! i’ve been waiting for two hours already . . . saan galing ‘yung truck? lumipad sa singapore?? f**k!
the truck came around 11:00 and the towing driver said, "inuna na nga po namin kayo kasi kanina pa kayo tumatawag." wow! salamat ha . . . utang na loob ko pa ‘yun. i’m supposed to be at my office by 12 noon and good luck if i can make it on time! of all moments pa . . . i was wearing white for work . . . ‘pag minamalas ka nga naman . . .
after leaving my car at nissan for service, i was told that they’d give me the evaluation later in the afternoon with regard to my car’s problem. i agreed. i can call them up anyway when i get to my office. i was already on my way to makati, having my driver take me there. now . . . this driver of ours . . . to tell you the truth, usually drives the van at a turtle’s pace . . . 40kph. i instructed the tow truck to follow the van so we can take it to nissan. shit! the driver drove the van at a fast pace! first time i’ve seen him do that! pero naman! talk about the whole situation . . . that’s the moment when i wouldn’t mind him driving slowly. the tow truck can’t drive fast . . . all the more since it’s carrying my car. shit talaga. after taking my car to nissan, i was hoping the driver would drive the van fast but no . . . we were back to 40kph. i arrived in makati around 1:00 in the afternoon. shit . . .
eventually, i called nissan to ask for my car’s evaluation. now i’m totally pissed off . . . they haven’t made the evaluation yet. shit! it’s nearing 5:00 and my car hasn’t been diagnosed yet? the reason? it’s not prioritized since my original appointment was 8:30 in the morning but i took the car around 11:00. pucha naman! kasalanan ko bang ayaw nang mag-start ng sasakyan at kailangan na siyang i-tow? as if i had predicted that my car will no longer start that day . . . bullshit!
i was on my home come 6:00 p. m. since we had the driver, i had been reflecting about my life the whole time. i realized nothing has been going right in my life . . . so far this year . . . all the more this february . . . and it’s pathetic. i wanted to cry . . . i don’t know what else to do . . . i felt i’m no longer being listened to . . . no longer important . . .
i remembered the situation when my car stalled at the intersection and somehow, i placed my life in that situation. i realized it’s like i’m also at an intersection and i’m really dying to cross it. but everytime i try to do so . . . i just can’t . . . i bog down. and when again i’d have the courage to do so . . . many will cut across forcing me to stop and give way. and being helpless . . . i’m left with no choice but to have me pulled back and wait until i get rescued. in my life . . . i guess i’m still waiting for the rescue part . . . i’m still here . . . stalled . . .
as far as i know, i’m one of the most patient people existing in this world . . . understanding as well . . . but i really have reached that point that i can no longer remain patient . . . and things have gone way too complicated for me to completely understand.
i have long been praying for happiness . . . but i feel like i’m not being listened to . . . wala pang nangyaring tama sa buhay ko this year . . . and it hurts . . .
exactly a week from now, i’ll be celebrating my birthday. what i usually do when my birthday comes near, i plan a get together with the friends i love and basically treat them out for a bonding moment. i’m not planning anything this year. i’m not in the mood. i see no reason to celebrate. they say celebrating your birthday is to be thankful for your blessings . . . i’ve got nothing to be thankful for so far . . . thus, i need not celebrate. everything has been going wrong in my life right now . . . i doubt if the wheels can turn in time for my birthday . . .
i’ve long been trying to put on a mask to people . . . pretending everything’s fine and i’m ok . . . gripping with life, at least . . . but to tell you honestly . . . i’m too exhausted physically . . . too stressed emotionally . . . too tired to hope about your own life . . . too weak to go through with life . . .
many people have been asking me about the weight loss and the pathetic eyes i’ve been sporting for the past couple of months . . . no, i’m definitely not into drugs . . . i’m just too hopeless to get inspired to eat . . . and yes, i’ve been crying myself to sleep for the past couple of months . . .
ang lungkot ng buhay . . .
–GI 30682
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ysn, mel . . . check this out . . . interesting ito . . . haha
early this week, i was having a phone conversation with my best friend and eventually we were led to the topic about relationships. having been mending a broken heart for the past seven months (and oh my god . . . 22nd day of the month pala ngayon :’(), i came to utter the words, "bakit kasi mas madaming pinapanganak na babae compared sa boys".
now, my best friend gave an interesting answer, and he insists there had really been a study regarding that matter . . . want to know what that theory is? read on . . .
my best friend said that studies have been made that in our world right now, we’re very much particular about looks. we all would want to get married with good-looking partners. now, science, he says, suggests that good genes result to a female offspring . . . thus, the reason why more females are being born than males.
i came to question the theory . . . and my best friend readily answered proofs such as angelina and brad pitt’s baby, katie and tom cruise’s baby, lucy and richard gomez’ baby . . . and perhaps, many more . . .
ok . . . ok . . . i’ll try buying the idea . . . which eventually led me to tell my bestfriend . . . "grabe, sabi na e. maganda ang genes ko dahil babae ako. haha" which, on the other hand, made my best friend sad. why? he began realizing he’s male and the sad part is . . . his other sibling is also male. he began saying "so, ganoon kasama ang genes ko?" oh well . . . haha
to add further . . . as many of you are aware that i’m really choosy with regard to picking my boyfriend and potential partner for life, i began telling my best friend . . . "best, by the time i get married sa gwapo kong magiging asawa, kung nasaan man siya ngayon . . . for sure, babae ang magiging anak namin. haha . . ."
oh well . . . i guess i’ve found another reason to say when asked why i’m very particular about looks in choosing a partner. before, i’d often use "genetics . . . importante sa akin ‘yun." now, i can also alternately say, "gusto ko kasi magkaroon ng anak na babae." haha
off topic . . .
we’re temporarily holding office at VA while we still haven’t found a good office space. anyway, today’s the first day that we started hanging out at VA. it was a grand reunion of some sorts for us who have resigned at the department of national defense. kumpleto na ulit doon ang barkada . . . haha. the news that we’re temporarily at VA for a couple weeks spread fast as many have come to visit and catch up with the recent events of our lives. the funny part? well . . . more people have added to the list of people who call me "addict". their statement: "gi, kung ano man talaga ‘yang tinitira mo . . . itigil mo na. super payat mo na. mukha kang addict."
sanay na ako sa comment na ‘yan. will i gain weight soon? nah, i don’t think so . . . mahirap yata ‘yun . . .
–GI 30682
Science | Comment (0)american idol
ok . . .
ever since season 3, i’ve always been hooked on this reality search and for me, i find this to be the best reality search ever.
so anyway, just last month . . . season 6 had started and i’ve seen great auditions actually. but just last week, the final 24 has already been chosen. i’ve got my early favorites . . . 10 people i’d love to be part of the final 12 . . .
1. melinda doolittle - she has long been a back-up singer and wow! i just love the power and the simplicity of her voice. i want her to win the title, actually. i wish she’d gain more confidence and believe more on her talent because she really has it. will definitely be looking forward for her performances and i pray that she be able to pick the best songs each round.
2. phil stacey - the guy who was absent during the birth of his second child because of the auditions. although the audition was pretty shaky, his performance in hollywood has been great. i had goose bumps as i see on tv his rendition of "have you ever really loved a woman?" by bryan adams.
3. rudy cardenas - i like his voice and really . . . he has that charm, promise . . .
4. nick pedro - although he quit last season, it was great that he had developed more confidence for this season and i hope he goes a long way.
5. alaina alexander - just got stunned with her performance in hollywood.
6. sanjaya (i couldn’t get his family name) - very simple method in singing . . . the judges were right. he has a better voice than his sister. haha . . . indian siya . . .
7. nicole tranquilio - powerful voice
8. antonella barba - now i’m believing that indeed, the humble will be lifted . . . haha
9. stephanie edmunds - she has the attitude of a true star . . . haha . . . to have the courage to tell the judges "shut up!" after they’ve told you that you’re part of the final 24 . . . that’s great . . . haha
10. chris sligh - he has that great sense of humor. great voice . . . if he’d work on his looks a little further . . . he’d go a long way 
my favorites: melinda doolittle (as i’ve said, i want her to win), phil stacey and rudy cardenas. yup, the two guys are definitely cute. crush ko na sila . . . haha . . .
uh-oh . . . here i go again . . . kalbo na naman . . . *sheesh*
–GI 30682
Uncategorized | Comment (0)bullet day (in tagalog: balang araw . . .)
had been seeing frequently this trailer of a new movie coming up, "dreamgirls" and honestly, the first time i saw the trailer, i was not interested to see it. why? well, i’m not really fond of movies which are musical in nature, with black people as characters. hey don’t get me wrong, i’m not a racist . . . i just don’t like retro themes.
but anyway, as i continue watching the trailer, i figured it’s a great story and now, honestly, i’m really looking forward to see it. all the more with its nominations in the oscars and the golden globes, then this must really be a good one.
i’m not a fan of beyonce knowles but there’s one character i’m looking forward to see . . . jennifer hudson. although at first i just find the one portraying effie’s character seemed familiar, it never rang a bell to me that it’s jennifer hudson . . . oh yes, that girl who got eliminated during round 6 of american idol season 3. she’s a good singer but her early departure was a loss. although i’m not really rooting for her at that time, for i preferred fantasia barrino and la toya london . . . i believed in the power of her voice. now that i’m seeing her in the movies . . . i’m just happy for her. honestly speaking, i consider her now as the most successful among the finalists of american idol season 3 . . . having won the best supporting actress honor during the recent golden globes.
well, i guess persistence really pays off in time. as long as you’re determined to reach your goals . . . i believe you really can . . .
so anyway . . . early this year, i was with a friend and were basically hanging out at the mall. we’ve decided to drop by a bookstore and basically just look and browse through the books they’re selling. anyway, we eventually were lead to the shelves where local stories/scripts are turned into comics . . . and . . . although i would find it corny back then, i tried having a different view about it.
as most of you know . . . i’ve lately discovered my fondness in writing stories and have eventually dreamt of making it big in scriptwriting . . . being able to write scripts good enough for television or even the silver screen.
i’ve figured . . . that could be a step . . . having the stories i’ve written so far turned into comics or just basically get published even by small time publishing companies. i could start small . . . and eventually work my way up, right? another thing, although i have plans of eventually making a career move, it’s not something i’m gonna do in the near future. doing freelance writing is something i’m open at this time, i guess . . . and then after having done so . . . i’ll create a name for myself in the field of media . . .
oh yes, i’m telling you, guys . . . balang araw . . . sisikat din ako . . . haha . . .
–GI 30682
thoughts | Comment (0)predicting earthquakes
due to the many sleepless nights i’ve been having lately, i usually end up watching tv until midnight . . . my favorites lately? well, aside from the movie channels, i’ve been fond of the discovery channel and the national geographic channel.
now, there had been an episode where they (i’m not sure if i’ve watched this in the national geographic channel or the discovery channel) featured the question, "is predicting earthquakes possible?"
i got glued to the tv watching that episode not just because of the interesting topic but also because one set of theorists they featured were 2 indian scientists . . . and well, you know i’ve been fond of indians lately. haha . . . and i’m sure si mel lang ang makakaintindi ng statement na ‘yan. haha, it’s a private joke
there were a couple of theories featured . . . some scientific, some weird, and some . . . well, i find possible.
one weird theory was that of the number of "hops" a bird will do in the cage. if the bird hops rather more frequently than it usually does, then earthquakes occur. nah, i wouldn’t buy that . . .
another theory was very much scientific and mathematical to be exact. it involved many calculations as well as computer observations of the temperature of the earth’s crust. hmmm . . . i might buy that . . . but it’s too complex for me to understand the theory right away. haha
the final theory . . . the theory made by those two indians was about the idea that whenever the earth aligns with 2 other heavenly bodies, expect an earthquake to occur. they further explain that the earth, as it aligns with other heavenly bodies, results to changing of the tides and such changing of the tides might be caused by the movement of the plates. add a little computation and they say they can predict when and where an earthquake will occur.
now, national geographic or the discovery channel challenged these two indians to witness their own prediction and the two gladly obliged. after making their prediction, the two indians even went to local authorities advising them to be cautious as an earthquake will come. the two set camp at a place near what they consider will be the epicenter of the quake. they’ve set up other gadgets, like a compass, a balanced set of rocks, water in a glass . . . things whose slight change or movement will confirm an earthquake happening.
the said time is reached . . . and . . . nothing happened . . . they waited for a couple of more hours . . . and still, no earthquake occured. eventually, they’ve decided to pack up with these two indians saying in front of the camera that perhaps they made something wrong in their calculations and they’re gonna look further on that. interesting enough . . . a couple of months after, an earthquake occured in that place.
they again made another prediction and having accepted again the challenge of the national geographic or the discovery channel, the same thing happened. they warned the local authorities . . . set camp at a place near the epicenter bringing along their gadgets . . . and again, as the Dday is reached . . . no earthquake occured. to continue further, after waiting a couple of hours more, the two indians conceded and again reasoned out that perhaps they again made a wrong calculation somewhere along the way. after packing up, a couple of days after, an earthquake occured near their predicted epicenter.
seismologists have argued that predicting earthquakes isn’t really possible and any attempt to predict it is nonsense. to tell you honestly, i admire those two indians, having had the courage to face humiliation in front of the camera as it slowly reveals to the viewers that they maybe making a fool of themselves. but you know, i’d love to consider the possibility that maybe they have a point in their theory and maybe it’s true . . . there were just a couple of mistakes in the calculations somewhere. i’m not discounting the fact that earthquakes occured sometime near and somewhere near their predicted earthquake.
as we all have studied a couple of biographies of some known and great scientists, we’d all realize that somewhere along their careers, they’d been ridiculed for giving some weird and sometimes "out of this world" theories . . . but as we continue studying their lives, they’d eventually redeem themselves as they, in time, will be able to prove that their theory had been right all along.
who knows? maybe these two indians have found the right formula with regard to predicting earthquakes after all. who wouldn’t want a way to be able to predict earthquakes, right? earthquakes . . . great quakes can really be devastating and being able to predict them can save lives.
now, should the time come that these two indians be able to redeem themselves with regard to proving their theory . . . i’d be one of those people happy for them not because i’ve been fond of indian people lately but because . . . maybe i just saw their point . . .
–GI 30682
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